Imagine waking up on what should be a normal day in my life only to find that a loved one is gone. About three years ago, I thought that one day in my life would just be a normal day and a fun night, but I never expected to lose a very important person in my life. I was supposed to be at home taking care of my grandmother that day; however, I chose to hang out with my friends. We were partying, drinking and having fun. Unfortunately, I ignored my father's thoughtful words: "Son, please stay home and take care of your grandmother because she is sick." My parents trusted me to carry out a simple task, but I betrayed their trust. From the day she left, I couldn't forgive myself for not taking care of her when I had the chance. I felt overwhelmed with guilt because of the decision I made and promised myself that I would never let this happen to anyone else in my life again. Even though he is no longer physically with me, and I know his spirit will live on forever, and the images of his love will never fade from my memory. That day when I was out with my friends, I didn't see the importance of how much my grandmother meant to me until she passed away in the hospital. My friends and my grandmother were important to me, but that night I chose to be with my friends. However, I couldn't be at the hospital to share with her the last moment she walked away from this world. Sometimes I wish I could whisper in her ears and let her know what a loving, caring, supportive grandmother she was. And another time, I wish I could kiss her cheek and look her in the eyes and say "I love you." With the death of my grandmother, I was filled with pain and sorrow, as if someone had taken out my heart and stabbed me in the back with a pit people. ...... middle of paper ......, give, laugh, be happy, have patience and, most important of all, live every moment as if it were your last. If she hadn't taught me these important life lessons, I wouldn't be the person I am today. He pushed me to do well in school. If it weren't for her, I would probably be wandering the streets and would never have had the opportunity to write this essay to appreciate her love. My grandmother's spirit inspires me to do well in school so as to make her happy. He will always be in my heart and I know he watches over me and protects me. Because she is a loving and forgiving person, I feel like she has forgiven me and I have forgiven myself for not being able to be by her side to say goodbye one last time. And I too know that from above he smiles at me with pride, with love, like a shining sun after a rainy day.