Not only did he stand up to relive the stress being placed on the church, but he lied to both himself, his aunt, and the church as a whole. Hughes also faced a tremendous amount of emotional pressure that night. Hughes sat on the bed and cried, because he knew what had really happened that night, he also cried because he was promised that he would see Jesus, and all his sins would be freed by him. Hughes began to think that something was wrong with him and that this was why Jesus never came. He didn't understand why all the other children could be saved but he couldn't. “But I was really crying because I couldn't bear to tell her that I had lied, that I had deceived everyone in the church, and I hadn't seen Jesus, and that now I didn't believe there was any Jesus. more, since he did not come to help me” (112), Hughes writes of his predicament. He no longer had any idea what his religious beliefs were, nor did he want to talk about it, with anyone, because the entire community believes (including his aunt) that he achieved salvation that night. Hughes was confused, he had been raised to believe in Jesus Christ, this was all he had ever known and this new idea, that Jesus might not actually be real, was terrifying. Hughes' emotions were all over the place, he was confused and sad, but most of all disappointed. Was he the problem? It was his fault that the other children were saved from their sins