I looked at what was expected of me and allowed many things to suffer around me. If my partner didn't want to go to a social event, I went alone so I wouldn't feel guilty about breaking the commitment. I didn't even consider the effects of my choice on the people I love. There is a social website called MEETUP.COM designed to help antisocials become social. This website seemed to become an addiction for me and I started a wine group, Diversify Your Wine. For 5 years I worked on this calendar allowing the smaller events to be 3 per month. I wouldn't let anything stop me from attending those events even if others asked me to make them a priority. There's a quote you hear a lot: "Admit that you, alone, have no power to overcome your addiction," and I felt like I needed an intervention. Luckily, guidance came as I was trying to figure out what I needed to change in my life. When you start taking the power back from the mundane and investing it in what's important, change is inevitable. I knew I had let myself suffer enough from my poor time management and overcommitment. Positive steps in my future career and true passion for my life could not be experienced until I felt myself
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